WHY CANT I

Friday, March 31, 2006 , 11:27 PM

so late liao.. my mother here nagging again.. she say '' must sleep early.. it is important for a woman to sleep early.. if not.. will grow old faster..."haha.. so funny right..k nvm..

anyway.. i went to help my parents today again.. this time round i was "promoted".. now i m helping my parents to put the ingredients... partially due to the fact that the customers complain that the waiting time is too long.. but this is also because.. some people order a lot of bowls ma.. den now my mother wants me to go to their shop tmr to help out at 8.. SO EARLY !!! i still sleeping lor.. so i bargain with my mother.. in the end she say that it is okay for me to go at 9.. but i still think it is early lor.. later i will try to bargain again.. try to make it as late as possible.. cos I WANT TO SLEEP!!!

anyway.. then at abt 4 plus.. i went to tb to meet uma so that we can go stc together.. i dont want to go school alone.. cos this time round.. i m wearing the jj uniform and i withdraw out liao.. so it is kind of awarkward.. but then i only manage to meet uma at 5 plus.. we were so worried that we could not reach school in time to get the award.. cos the letter stated that they will ignore whoever that came in after 5.45.. luckily.. we manage to reach school just on time.. n uma is caught for her short skirt.. haha.. mine.. erm.... just nice..hehe.. cos i never alter ma.. i dont want to waste any money since i withdrawing... clever right.. hehehe.. then i also get the yearbook liao.. finally.. after many days of waiting.. yeah.. nice being back in stc again.. the feeling is so GREAT!! (nw.. u should go back).. haha.. den when mr yeo received his award for his long service to the school.. all of us stand up to applaud for him.. keep it up.. mr yeo!.. mrs fang also got that award.. and we also got stand up to applaud for her.. hehe so happy for them.. STC RULES!!

then later we go and talk to the teachers.. haha.. ms lee also feels that my course is good.. so now i feel even better.. yeah.. got to work hard to get myself into uni.. i believe i can.. jia you..

k.. la.. gtg liao.. tmr has to wake up very early.. ai..................

it's only by going down into the abyss

that we recover the treasures of life

where you stumble

there lies your treasure

the very cave you are afraif to enter

turms out to be the source of

what you were looking for

-joseph campbell-

Thursday, March 30, 2006 , 6:07 PM

i m so tired now.. the queue is so long.. ai.. i feel weird also.. helping my parents out at the store.. the feeling ia just not so right.. n today is only my 3rd day at work.. n i m alr "breaking" down... how am i going to carry on tis... but the good thing is that i can treat it as a work out.. cos at that place.. i bound to sweat on lor.. hehe.. after that i also went for a jog.. but i got stitiches.. so i onli jog for abt 2 rounds around hillock n stop liao.. the pain is killing me.. i think is because i drank too much water before i jog.. stupid me.. i doubt i got burn any fats at all..then now... i m also learning a magic trick.. but i cant seems to get it right.. give up alr la.. i m not going to try again..

den yesterday.. i also met nw at taka to eat in seoul garden.. not worthy.. the food very limited.. the other day one was better.. they got more food.. tis time round.. all we ate was only chicken.. chicken and more chicken.. ai.. n the soup is super spicy.. omg la.. wrong choice of soup.. but before we went to seoul garden to have our dinner.. we went down to levis 1st.. cos they got 70% sale.. haha.. the jeans are so much cheaper.. but i didnt buy anything from there.. nw did.. she bought the jeans at $50 n she claim that it is the cheapest jeans she ever bought.. the reason why i never bought the jeans was because.. the jeans make my hips look bigger.. so too bad.. but later at Wh .. i bought a jeans at only $19.. SO CHEAP.. the original price was $59.. but the place also got 70% off ma.. that's why so cheap.. den at girdano.. i saw a belt i like.. but it cost $19.. so i never buy lor.. but i really like it.. maybe next time... i will ask my parents to buy for me.. like that is they pay ma.. not me..haha.. den it was around 9 when we leave taka.. haha.. my mother nag at me again.. ai... always nagging....but is for our own good ma..

n yah.. nw.. george cant cycle.. so drop the idea of going cycling liao.. hehe..

Tuesday, March 28, 2006 , 11:15 PM

continuation...

tis week.. dun worry there is onli 2 days..

mon: went to school.. take withdrawl form n withdraw out liao.. my mother.. k po.. go n ask my form tracher for his opinion on goin go poly.. den to my surprise.. he also take up the course biomedical.. so he knows quite a lot.. haha.. after hearin his views.. i felt better.. den later.. my parents wan to meet with their friends.. so my mother mke a phone call.. den we walk all the way to the next part of jurong.. actaully teh place is quite close to my school.. but becos.. we dun noe our way.. we make a damn big round.. watever.. den my parents talk very long lor.. while they were talking.. i went to buy a magazine.. even after i finsh readin.. they were still talkin.. i really wanted to go buy another one again..but i wanted to save money.. so i drop the idea.. in the end.. we leave the place..onli at 11 plus.. i actaully wanted to go jurong poin to shop.. but den my mother friend told us to take a bus that eventually lead to jurong east interchange.. so.. ai... u noe what happen liao... i went to the library to try my luck and see if i can borrow any books i wanted.. n yes.. i manage to boorow a book written by jodi picoult.. recommanded by nw.. den later my parents went to settle their stuff.. later.. my mother complain she got headache.. so she decided to go bm to see a doc.. so i went to the library to try my luck again.. n yes.. i again manage to borrow the books i wan.. hehe.. in time around.. its 4 books.. the time traveller's wife.. teen idol.. fashionably late.. and another book by jodi picoult.. haha.. den later.. go home alr..

today: went to help my parents.. take orders for them.. my memory not very bad.. still can rmb.. but some.. i have to go back n ask them again.. ai.. den my dad wan to give mi $12( my pay)..so little onli cos i onli work for 2 and a half hour.. but den i say no need..hehe.. wan to help them cut on the production cost.. at around 6+.. i went to meet cheryl.. to pass her the cj notes.. cos she wan to give her friends.. they need it.. den at night.. i watch tv.. hehe.. saw my dad on tv.. the feel is so weird. but yet.. excited.. haha.. k tt all..

gtg.. gdnite..

, 10:53 PM

continue......

last week
monday: worried abt the fact that i had no tie.. luckily.. it was out of stock... den..school ends at 5.. felt terrible in school.. decided to go poly.. and i felt better.. met my relatives.. and they gave me advice.. at night.. ate dinner at my hse hawker centre..
tues: 1st civics lesson in school.. more talks.. so boring.. den met fish and nw at marina square.. cos i treating them suake sushi.. tis is to thank them for going down to the poly to help mi appeal.. but i got lost.. cant find the place.. so stupid of mi.. den later i forced fish to take neoprint.. haha.. blah.. n the neoprint was nice.. plus i realise i looked nice on uniform.. 2nd day wearing the 2 piece uniform after havin wearin the pinafore and blouse for 10 yrs.. took the same bus home with fish and realise that a lot of the things she did is not wat she wanted... she was forced
wed: cca open hse.. wanted to join the chess club.. but all the members were boys.. so in the end.. i joined the e club.. anyway.. i anyhow join one.. never intended to choose properly cos i going to poly alr.. after that.. went to meet cheryl.. to pass her the physics file from cjc.. intended to leave after that.. but in the end.. we went to mac.. n talk for a very long time.. by the time i reached home.. 7 plus alr.. cheryl also say i make her envy of poly life.. haha... but i m still worried i took the wrong path.. reached home.. open the mailbox.. receive the enrolment package.. happy...

thurs: went to have a medical check up after school.. den travel frm jurong to orchard.. to have my x ray taken there.. cos i need the result urgently and the clinic in jurong was unable to give me on the day itself.. took a cab there and i cost mi $14.. so ex... at night.. went to jurong again.. tis time.. to pass the result of the x ray to them.. but the part timer dun noe anything.. in the end.. i have to wait for the senior one to come.. so by the time everything was done.. it was 9+.. reached home at 10+.. den have to do hw.. cos need to pass up on fri.. den later have to settle the necessary documents needed by tp.. so everything was onli settled at 12+.. n so.. i got to sleep at around 1.. den have to wake up at 5.45 the next day..

fri: obviously.. i was sleepy.. haha.. after skool.. went to the clinci again.. cos the doc. left out something.. later bought a tee at $10.. cos i dun wan to go to tp in jj uniform.. so weird.. den met nw.. on the train.. go tp together.. den ate dinner at a place where i dun noe wat is the name.. haha... its a buffet.. n it cost $24.. it was after we compared with the other resturant prices which we wanted to eat.. den we make the decision.. th eocst is more worthy for a buffet..stayed in the place for more than 3 hours.. when i reached my mum shop.. i got scoldin.. sayin i so late than go home.. haha.. but i dun care liao.. cos i had fun..shiok....

sat: went out wth fish n nw.. to taka den to bras pasa.. cant find fish in the pop.. haha.. mi n nw..make fun of her.. say she too short.. haha.. but tt so bad of us.. ended the day early cos i got family gatherin at night.. the condo.. so nice.. like a resort.. onli tt there is too many buildings.. got some advice from my cousin( the older ones).. they feel that i should go jc.. den i feel irriated again.. almost broke down..but when i reached home.. i cried again when my mother ask abt their opinions.. why m i so a cry baby.. but i cant hold back my emotions.. cannot blame me one..

sun: stayed at home.. watch tv.. sis went out.. maid off day.. so i alone at home.. at night.. went out for dinner with my parents.. they talk to mi again.. they dun wan mi to make the wrong choice again.. cos there is no turing back liao.. sry to say.. but i cry again.. dun laugh...

k.. will continue again...

, 10:13 PM

reasons why i never blog

1) never go online.. too sad to do so.. still trying to get over the fact that i was posted to a school that i dont like

2) too busy.. went out till very late.. so never go online as the next day got school

3) too lazy to do so...

k.. now that i am back on track.. i will briefly say what had happened during the past few weeks

the week during the school holidays

i stay at home and rot.. but everynight.. i will go to my parents shop to help out.. anyway the next day also no school ma.. so okay one..

mon: cant rmb

tues: went out with cheryl.. watch yours mine and ours after we went to k box.. den i met up with george and go to heeren with him to meet my cj friends.. ate at marche... and....they are so sweet.. gave me a wallet for my bithday present.. george too also got a wallet.. mine is from billabong.. his was from mumbo..so i guess both are equally expensive.. thanks.. they also bought a waffle and sang a birthday song for both of us although mine had alr passed.. but it was also george birthday.. haha.. so its okay.. they also gave me a goodbye card.. also cried when i read their message.. shouldnt have left cjc at all.. cj rocks!! reach home at night.. very late

wed, thur: cant rmb.. but was waiting for cj to call hope can gain entry back there... recieve the e mail tt i was accepted in tp biomedical science

fri: went out with my cousin and my sis.. actually is to buy jj uniform.. but when we reach the place.. they told me is at bt timah.. so we went to bm 1st.. my sis and cousin went to return their comic books.. den we went kfc to eat.. den take bus to tb.. den take a train to clementi and den a bus to bt timah.. the queue was damn long.. so at 4 plus den i manage to buy the uniform.. but den the place never sell tie.. i start to panick.. ask sm to help mi buy tie in jj if possible on sat.. she say she will ask her friend to do so.. so i relax a bit.. den later we went to orchard.. my sis wanted to buy swimming costume and a bag.. and we also wanted to watch nanny mcphee.. but the timing was totally out.. so in the end.. we never buy anything and watch any movie.. but i manage to buy a book.. where rainbows end..

sat, sun: tryin to alter my skirt without bring it to the tailor.. but no use..

Sunday, March 05, 2006 , 10:53 AM

yesterday.. me and fish went to my mother shop early in the morning to have our breakfast.. of course i didnt eat lor mee la.. i dont like eating such food so early in the morning.. then after we finish our breakfast... we went tb to meet nw and stef.. however we stayed outside the mrt for quite a long period of time cos nw is waiting for lawerance(i think it is spelled like this).. nw need to get money from him.. i think it is more than $20.. but he ps her.. such a bad boy.. haha.. but anyway.. we leave the mrt station at around 11.30.. once we arrive there we went to the cold storage first.. then we went into my new house.. n i was nearly lost there.. i think the house is a bit like a maze.. haha.. even nw said she would get lost.. then my cousin offer to drive us to east coast park.. so good.... then we met uma and reg.. at the mac.. a saleman approach us la.. i still cant believe we bought 3 bottles of perfume and 3 watches for 59.90.. wow .. maybe we are cheated.. haha..

then.. cycling.. fish stef and reg dont know how to cycle yet.. so e nw and uma tried to teach them..but then they are all clever ppl.. one be one they manage to blaance themselves on the bike.. then wosh they go.. stef learns to cycle first.. then fish then followed by reg.. yeah.. good work guys..

after that.. we went back to my house for bbq.. but everything was done by my cousin.. from starting the fire to bbqing the food.. i guess we are just sitting down there to wait for the food to come.. now there is no more chao da chicken.. haha..

at 8 plus.. all of them went home.. then my cousins and my sister came... at 11.. my cousin drive us home... 12 we reach home.. and it is the end of story.. haha..

, 12:39 AM

so sad.. i am posted to jj.. why.. why is it like tat.. i dont want to be in jj.. i had tried to appeal to cj.. but i doubted they will accept me.. its a no wonder cos i put cj in my last choice.. obviously when they looked at my verification slip they wont not even consider me lor.. cheryl's friend had already recieved a call from cj telling her that she has been accepted.. so i dont think i will be accepted since i havent gotten any call from the school yet.. tmr.. i will have to go to jj.. have to leave the house by 6.10.. SO EARLY!! then if i move to tanah merah.. i will have to leave house at 5.30 (i think) .. but at that time.. i dont even think that there is any bus that starts so early.. plus i dont think the mrt also start its train at such a time.

when my mother told me she recieved a phone call from a person called alex calling from jj.. at that moment.. i believe i m dead already.. i knew there will be information on the camping thing.. and i was right. they are going to have a camp on MY BIRTHDAY!! IT'S MY BIRHTDAY AND I HAVE TO GO FOR A STUPID CAMP!! I DONT WANT!! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY LOR!! I WANT TO SPEND MY BIRTHDAY AT HOME!!i started crying when i heard this stupid news..then my mother told that guy that i hated camp.. then the guy said something.. i think he said that the camp is not a compulsory thing.. he could help me to talk to the teacher about it.. but then i am still afraid.. hopefully.. i wouldnt have to stay in the school.. pls..at least now.. i still have a ray of hope.. pls not destroy it...

i will continue tmr..

Thursday, March 02, 2006 , 4:39 PM

i m sick.. once i woke up.. i dont feel well.. i wonder why i still go to school.. during the bus ride.. i am already dying.. i wanted to vomiti out in the bus.. but luckily i manage to hang on till i reached the school.. once i reached my classroom... i lie down on the table... but when i stood or sit up.. the terrible feeling came again.. plus today asembly took longer than the usual timing.. when i reached the classroom.. i tokd myself i am going home.. hence.. after the first period.. i asked from my home tutor the permission to go home.. and i was granted.. i took a cab to cresent and see a doctor..

and guess who i saw there.. i was fish.. so qiao.. both of was ask for permission to go home early.. she also feel like vomiting.. and yes.. she did vomit on the way to school.. luckil i didnt vomitted out.. if not the whole bus will stink.. anyway.. she is no 22 and i am no 29.. so in the end... she went in earlier... she was told that it was a stomach flu.. for mine i just feel nauseous.. but now.. i am having a fever.. so.. if i am well enough to go to school tmr i will go.. afterall it is the last day at that school already..

then now.. i might start to panick again.. the posting results are out tmr.. i am very scared.. i think i will go and check my school during my break.. maybe i might breakdown if i am not posted to tehe school i wan..

err... gtg.. i am feeling terrible.. slept through almost the whole day.. then now i recieved news that fish can go already.. but regina may not be able to go liao.. hai..

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